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Becky and her birth son Carl

Becky Aske is a wife, mother, stepmother and birth mother. She currently serves as Vice-President of the nonprofit organization named Beauty Amidst the Ashes which is committed to educating people about the adoption option. Her birth son Carl is President and founder of the organization. At the age of 15, Rebecca chose to place her newborn son with a family in Iowa rather than parent. Her story of being a birth mother, along with stories from her now grown son and his parents can be found on her Facebook page. She has a BA in Ministry Leadership, an AA in Biblical Studies and a Child Development Associate Degree. She lives in Washington State with her husband, 18-year-old daughter, two step sons, a dog, and cat.

triad (trī’ād’) n. A collection of three things having something in common.

adoption triad (əˈdɒpt shuhn trī’ād’) n. The interrelated, interdependent relationship of the people intimately involved in an adoption, namely the birth parents, the adoptive parents, and the adopted person.

I want to introduce you all to Cynthia, a passionate, wise wife and mother who also is a part of that adoption triad as a birthmother.

Can you share a bit about the experience of placing your child for adoption? 

My birthson, Joshua, was born in 2005. He was my third child. I felt ill equipped to give him the best life possible. I knew God had a plan for my son; I just didn’t believe that plan meant parenting. I was in a toxic relationship with his birthfather that I was ready to get out of for good. I was just finally ready to let God lead in my life rather than the other way around.

What level of openness have you had in the past and do you currently have with the adoptive family? 

We enjoy a completely open adoption and have had this arrangement all along. We send pictures, talk on the phone, Skype each other, stay at each other’s homes for minivacations, and our boys communicate as openly as they want.

How have you been able to serve birth mothers?

I started writing Restorative Grief: A Guide To Healing From Adoption for a local agency to use as a post relinquishment tool. Very quickly, it grew into something more. I felt God tugging at my heart when I was seeing birthmom after birthmom still grieving years down the road. There will always be grief on this road, but there were so many women that hadn’t healed in the least, and I just realized that this was not God’s plan for their lives. They were spending so much time tied up in their emotions that they were never stepping out of the mire and into God’s glory. That was why I began writing. There are adoption agencies that use my book to do post-relinquishment counseling with their birthmothers. There are agencies that just hand them to every birthmother when she has placed. The response has been overwhelming and very much a blessing from God!

What message do you wish you could share with adoptive families?

I want adoptive families to understand adoption as God’s heart and not a baby buying business. Sometimes money and desires get in the way and things become convoluted. People want babies so badly illing to do anything, as want money so badly they also will do anything. Birthmothers are at the heart of adoption and we only have adoption as an option because of them. Watch how your agency treats its birthmothers. Ask birthmothers how they are treated after placement has occurred.

I also think all players in the adoption triad must be very honest with themselves about whether or not they are willing to have an open adoption. Many adoptive parents agree to open adoptions and then close them off after relinquishment paperwork is formalized. I have spoken with countless birthparents whose hearts are forever broken because they were fooled.

I believe adoption as a whole is God’s design. But I also believe some adoption reform is necessary because when it becomes about money or deceit, no one wins; least of all the child.

To all adoptive families, pray for your birth families. It is a hard road to walk, even for those who seem like they may have been hardened or unbothered. Pray for them.

How is adoption a part of your family now? How do you talk to the children you are raising about adoption? 

Adoption is an open-ended conversation in our home, and we are very honest in our approach. It has very much become a fact of life and all 3 of my children are close! My husband and I are also close with the adoptive parents. We truly have become family.

One little word can hold a lot of meaning. And, while I’d like to say I don’t get hung up on something as simple as one word, I often do.

While watching a dramatic scene in the movie Somewhere Between when a teen girl who had been adopted from China reunited with her birth family, I realized how emotionally charged a simple word like mother was to me. I shifted in my seat when the woman who had given birth to this young woman and abandoned her stroked her hair and told her to call her Mother as the woman who adopted her and raised her stood nearby.

As I consider my own response to mother nomenclature, I’d be remiss to not consider the more important potential response of my daughter from adoption as well as her siblings. My feelings, my response, my opinion is just one, and not the most significant one at that.

When I read Mila’s words about her experience with these “simple” words, I was able to let go a bit of my own perspective and hear a message I needed to hear. I asked her if I could share that with you. Mothers and waiting mothers of children who have another mother besides you, read on. 

I have to admit that biological sounds very cold and aloof to me. Because I am a deeply emotional person and feel a profound emotional connection to my Korean parents and family, I do not prefer the term biological. Furthermore, the term birthmother/father/family can carry other patronizing connotations with it with which some feel very uncomfortable. I honestly have never felt very patronized or emotionally negative toward this term, but I understand why others do. Particularly, I understand why the first/original mother/father would feel patronized by this term.

I rarely use the terms real or natural simply because, for me personally, psychologically and emotionally these terms feel too divisive and diminutive in either direction. I’ve actually heard real and natural used in the context of describing both adoptive and biological parents. In my own personal encounters with different people, I’ve heard people refer to my Korean parents as my real or natural parents as well as to my American parents as my real or natural parents.

If forced into a corner and demanded to make a distinction (which is a whole other pesky and irritating issue that surrounds being an adoptee), I would have to honestly say that, in my case, I consider both sets of parents–both my Korean and my American parents–to be my real and natural parents. I know that there are others who would take issue with this, and that’s understandable. The adoptee experience is so diverse and varied that we must consider and acknowledge the validity of each adoptee’s viewpoint and experience, particularly when those experiences and viewpoints differ. Failure to do so dismisses the inherent complexities and realities of the adoption experience. Of course, these relationships with my two sets of parents are complex and imperfect, laden with unresolved issues and dysfunction. But, nonetheless, I personally consider all four of them as my parents. Certainly and obviously, our relationships are characterized by different dynamics, histories, and roles. Yet, ultimately, I prefer to use none of the above identifiers, but rather simply to refer to them as my parents.

But, of course, it’s not that simple, and I often do feel compelled, or I am in some ways often required, or at least prodded and pried, to clarify and make distinctions to those addressing me. I make efforts to simply say in conversation my American parents and/or my Korean parents because that is what feels most natural and real to me. And, honestly, I wish that was simply enough. But, in adoption, rarely are things simple and rarely is one option enough.

Mila is a wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend, as well as a Korean adoptee. She was born in Seoul, South Korea in 1975 and adopted by a White American family 6 months later. She has been in reunion with her Korean family since 2009. You can hear Mila’s voice at collective site Transracial Eyes where she serves as one of 20+ adult adoptee contributors.