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Without further ado…meet “Jasper’s” family {guest post}

8.1.16

It was a hard morning for the obvious reason. We were saying goodbye to the little boy who had most definitely changed us and won our hearts…all five of our hearts. But, it was harder still that we were sending him back technically “unmatched.” I was worried that his two buddies who had been matched with families since coming to America would talk about coming back and that our sweet Jasper would be left wondering why his story would turn out differently. He needed to be someone’s son. He needed to have a forever family. Of course, my heart ached as I watched him walk down the security line and I couldn’t tell him, “we will see you again.” But there was one thing I did know in all that sadness—I know a God who created this boy for a purpose, a God who loves him more than we do, a God who called us to be part of his story. And the thing is, I believe every word my God tells me, and I trust His promises. I knew in that sadness, my God was in control.

You see, several days earlier, I spoke to a woman who lived in a state I have never been to, in a place unfamiliar to me. We talked about him. She was smitten with him, and I could feel her intensity and honest desire through the phone, to know this boy. She said, “we are going to leave, and drive to meet him.” I was overwhelmed by her passion as this drive would be no easy feat, leaving behind 3 young children and a large farm in their absence. My husband and I prayed for them that this would be his family. They pulled up the next day (after 14 hours) at a farewell picnic for the children and their host families, and I watched she and her husband smile as they watched him play and laugh in his adorable way. I felt His peace. It was a bitter sweet feeling, almost like watching your child be married off (I imagine)…there they go…I hope I did everything right, I hope they are loved as much…no, more, than we do. I felt the presence of my God assuring me of His plan, and His great love.

He has a forever family, dear friends. He is coming back to live as every child should, in a secure home, with stable and consistent love. With the promise that he will always have someone to call him son. And even better, with the chance to grow up meeting the very God who brought this family to him and secured this love. I’d say that is the best ending to his story that could ever be. And we are so very, very blessed to be but a small chapter in it all.

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Many of you have come to know and love this little boy “Jasper.” Many of you have followed the story of him and his friends, their journey to America, their new experiences. Many of you have read the messages from his host mom, detailing what a sweet, happy, and loving boy he is. Many of you have prayed for him to find his forever family.

Now let me tell you about someone you don’t know—a family, actually. A family of five. Husband Ed, wife Allison, and three boys aged 5, 7, and 9. That’s us. We’re a pretty average family just trying to follow God’s plan. Three years ago, we were called to adopt a little guy from China. We listened. We made that 2-year-old boy our son. And, it turned our comfortable life upside down! When things finally stabilized (somewhat!), we started to think about adopting again. Then, one day I saw THE picture. You know the one I’m talking about, the one with the three best friends in their bright orange shirts. It did me in!

Jasper. Brett. Joel (4)

With every word Beth shared about him, I became more and more smitten until we decided we needed to do something big. Two days before “Jasper” returned to China, my husband and I drove 14 hours to spend one hour watching “Jasper” and talking to his host family. Then, we turned around and drove 14 hours back home. We talked about things. We talked to our boys. We learned more about “Jasper’s” special needs. We wanted to make sure we weren’t just getting caught up in the moment. Most of all, we wanted to pray about it. The only way to know what our role was to be in “Jasper’s” life was to pray about it.

8 days after that day we drove to Philly, allow me to introduce myself.

Hi! I’m Allison. I’m “Jasper’s” mom.

Jasper family pic

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It is with very happy hearts that we share that ALL the children hosted are coming back! Every child has been matched with a forever family who are all now racing to do paperwork and bring them home fast!

Oh happy day!!!

If you are interested in hosting, please contact Sarah, the social worker at Madison. She is currently planning hosting for January as well as next summer.

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Posted by Kelly the Overthinker
Filed Under: Advocating, guest post

He is {guest post by Mark}

7.16.16

playlist named pixelatedIt was only a few hours after the very emotional and tearful goodbye to the amazing 8 year boy who had lived in our house and had become part of our family for the past month. Random music was playing as I drove, and I Am came on. I had listened to this song more times in the last month than I had every month in the last year combined. It was one of his favorites and was second on the personalized playlist he had created on Kelly’s phone. He must have played that song a million times. When his mood was right, he would belt it out. He always got the “I Am” parts right, but when it came to the rest of the song, it was hit or miss. Sometimes, we would catch a few of the words; other times, we’d just laugh at his attempt.

I wonder what he was thinking about when he boarded the plane to come to Měiguó a month ago. In the video clip we saw of him before saying yes to hosting him, he said he didn’t know what America was. I am not too sure what he was thinking when he was with us for the month either, but I know he loved it. He loved us. There’s a lot of unknowns but the wonderful fact is that he came to us as an orphan living in a orphanage in the south of China with no one to call family and he boarded that plane back to China with a family scrambling like mad to get paperwork done so they can get over there and bring him back to his forever family. It was very hard to say goodbye, even for me, the “strong and stable” Daddy and ShuShu. But, there is great joy in the hard knowing that a family will not rest until he’s home.

I wonder what he is thinking and feeling now. What is going through his mind?

There’s no space that His love can’t reach.
There’s no place where we can’t find peace.
There’s no end to Amazing Grace.

The words of one of his favorite songs became my prayer for him. I pray that he experienced love, peace, and grace from us and from the God we love. And through that experience and the change it made in his heart, I pray that as he spends the next handful of months back at the orphanage, he can somehow process that there is a God who loves, provides peace, and extends amazing grace in every corner of his world, no matter where he is. I pray that God sustains him there in that place with that knowledge until his family brings him home and can continue what He started and what we joined Him in, pouring into every space and place of his life…love, peace, and amazing grace.

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A new pair of shoes {guest post by “Jasper’s” host mom}

7.13.16

Beth, Jasper’s host mom, has shared here a few times over the last month. Tonight, I give her this space once again because these words and her heart behind them should be shared.

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Jasper's shoes
Yesterday, while at the farewell picnic, he came to me with a confused look. Was he upset about seeing the director from his orphanage for the first time since arrival? was he hurt? was he missing us? No, one of his beloved Lightening McQueen sandals that we had bought for him the day he arrived had broken. I made a fuss over the broken shoe and promised him that we would get him a new pair before he left. He shook his head gently and put his shoe back on with the strap loosely draped, exposing his skinny little feet. He hopped off of my lap and ran back to the other kids, not caring that as he ran, his shoe flopped around.

This morning, he came into my bedroom, as he always does. It is his last day. He was wearing his pajamas…and the broken sandals. I showed him that they were broken again. He shook his head again and grabbed my hand to get out of bed. At breakfast, I noticed just how worn and tired his broken sandals were, after only 4 weeks. As I cooked scrambled eggs for what seemed like the millionth time this month, I reflected on all that those sandals have done, experienced, been through on the feet of this little boy. Of course they look that way. They have been dragged as he learned to ride a bike. They have been drenched when he jumped through the sprinkler. They have been washed in the ocean as they sat in the hot sand all day. They have been covered in melting chocolate ice cream (many times). They have been on scooters and 4 wheelers, ladders and slides. They have been to stores, farms, playgrounds, and on trampolines. And, now, one was broken. I took him this morning to get a new pair. Again, he wasn’t impressed and didn’t show the urgency that I was feeling to get him a fresh new pair. He picked out the new sandals and put them on. We paid for them and left to come home. I put his old shoes on the floor and just stared at them.

What a journey this has been. I feel a bit like those shoes. Very worn, very tired, and very broken. But, just like Jasper, I don’t really want a new pair of shoes. I am content with the exhaustion, the wear, the brokenness of the knowledge that he is going back tomorrow. It is in all of this that I see the memories we have made with him, but more importantly, the lessons of grace, beauty, and love that have come with his time here. I don’t think I would want a new, fancy, fresh pair of shoes. I like the tired, worn, broken pair. It is in this place that I feel closest to God and see Him the most clearly. It has been an amazing journey, and even though we are broken at the thought of him leaving, we still want to wear those old shoes. But, I think I will do like he did now and embrace what we have and who we are, even in a broken state, and go run in His goodness and grace.

Jasper at picnic

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After being here for a month, tomorrow “Brett” and “Jasper” return to their orphanage in China. Thankfully, we know “Brett” will be coming back to the family who has said yes to making him their child. If you want to learn more about “Jasper” or any of the other children hosted who do not yet have a family committed to bringing them home OR about hosting yourself, email me and/or Sara, the social worker at Madison who manages the hosting program in our area.

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217 steps {guest post by “Jasper’s” host mom}

6.30.16

Every year, we save the ugliest day at the beach for our annual trek to ol’ Barney (Barnegat Lighthouse). Our kids look forward to climbing the 217, winding metal steps to the top, where they can overlook where the bay and the great Atlantic Ocean meet. The experience never really loses its luster.

This year would be no different, except that our days have been altogether different. Our family of 5 is a family of 6 for a season. “Jasper” is with us. On that day slotted for ol’ Barney, we decided that the climb to the top would not be an activity he could or should participate in. He came to us with weak muscle tone in his legs and has been falling down and tripping over his feet quite a bit. We thought that it was just too much for his little legs, too dangerous if he should trip. We also figured he wouldn’t even want to try because he has not liked climbing things at home with the other kids. So, we walked towards the lighthouse with the plan that I would stay with him and walk around the beach while the other kids climbed.

When we got to the entrance, he looked up and pointed to the top. His face was nervous but he started following the other kids into the stairwell. My husband Christian looked at me and said, “Should we let him climb?” I shrugged my shoulders and said, “I guess so! Seems he has already made that decision for us. If he doesn’t like it, I will climb back down with him.” He grabbed my hand. Together, we started to climb the steps, one step at a time. About only 20 steps in, he stopped. He looked at me, obviously already tired. I used my phone to translate “keep going.” He continued, all the time looking up at the spiral maze ahead of him. Half way there, he stopped again. He checked in with me for something translated as he has learned to do, and I said, “almost there!” He was getting slower and dragging a bit, but he did not stop again until we finally reached the top. I sent him out before me to the caged enclosure at the very top. He went out willingly and gasped as the strong, high winds hit him. He smiled so big and laughed as he ran around the platform with the other kids.

Jasper lighthouseJoy.

He did it.

We had assumed away this experience for him before we had even arrived at the beach! He showed us! Sometimes, we adults get caught up in our protective higher knowledge. We think we know what is best and what our children are capable of. “Jasper” showed us that his physical setbacks are not character setbacks. His determination and willingness to try things that are different, even scary perhaps, triumph any limitations his body may have. He held my hand. He looked to me for encouragement. He was tired. But, don’t we all find ourselves there too? When we take on something difficult, we need a hand to hold, we need encouragement from others, we often falter from absolute exhaustion…but, man, when we arrive, the view from the top is just beautiful.

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We are currently hosting the boy MAA calls “Brett” for advocating purposes; our friends are hosting “Jasper.” If you feel the nudge that one of these boys may be your son and you would like to learn more about him, email me and/or the social worker at Madison who is working hard to find them families too. Note that Madison is offering $3,000 in grants towards each boy’s adoption with possibly more available!

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