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Team Famous

10.26.15

It’s somewhat comforting to see THIS LINK and get confirmation that the professional photographers who followed us to the park on our last day and were all up in our faces were for a legitimate reason.

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That’s me, the I’m-crazy-glad-that-I-still-had-a-pack-of-stickers-left-in-my-backpack me.

In case you don’t read Mandarin and you don’t want to fight Google translate for salvable meaning, here’s how (I think) the article translates for us English speakers.

 

Love Without Boundary

 

On October 12, 2015, 15 team members came to [this orphanage] and spent a wonderful week with children here. Also, they built deep relationships. During the week, they were singing, dancing, and playing games together. Also, they taught kids to draw and do handcrafts. They even accompanied them to the Botanic park to extend their vision and knowledge.

The kids had an unforgettable week. Through every warm and impressed moment, despite how it was short in time and with a language barrier, we saw that love has no barrier. Love is rooted in the kids’ hearts.

A team member born in the 1990s said it was her first time to visit China and also the first time to communicate with the kids. But, when the kid called her Mama, she was very impressed and thought it was really meaningful to do something for the kids.

When the team was leaving, the kids pulled the hands of the foreign Dads and Moms and did not want them to leave. We gave them handcrafts and cards to express our gratitude.

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Posted by Kelly the Overthinker
Filed Under: China

No China trip is complete without a visit here

10.25.15

Our last few months of 2014 and first few months of 2015 changed all future China trips for us forever. For 6 months, our single-family home became a double-family home so that a very special little person could start her life without any fear. At about a month old, that little person and all her big people who cared for her returned to China, leaving our home feeling very empty with just the 6 of us.

As the team who joined me at the orphanage headed back to the states, I got on a fast train in Beijing and went to spend a few days in their single-family home where Helen treated me as she would a sister. She made me eggs with tomato and Chinese pancakes and steamed bread—all the things she makes that she knows I like. And, we chatted long into the night about the marriage book I am reading, Drew’s new guitar lessons, Lydia’s gymnastics class, how the older kids are doing in middle school. We also talked about the worries of parenting and adjusting to a new baby, the expectations on them to give “gifts” to Caleb’s kindergarten teachers, and how the neighborhood grandmothers shake their heads at Grace’s disposable diapers and tell Helen she’s lazy for using them instead of traditional split pants. She’s Chinese. I’m American. We’re so very different as are our worlds. Yet, there are so many things that we share and so many places in our hearts that the other is able to encourage. And, no China trip of ours would be complete ever again without at least a few days with Helen and her quiver.

Oh, how I love her little ones who are growing and learning so fast that my heart aches that I’m missing it all when I’m across the ocean. Gracie girl is so big and smiley and vocal, not at all that sleepy little baby who at one time lived here. And, Caleb seems inches taller and definitely more grown up now that he’s an official schoolboy.

The day I left to return home, I got up early to see Caleb before they took him to kindergarten at 7:30am. Right before they left, they gathered in a circle and held hands and asked me to join them and lift up him and his day of school. When I thanked them for inviting me into that, they said, “Of course we would. We only started doing that because we learned it from your family. There’s so much we learned from you.”

When you live so closely with others, truly living in community with others, they get to see it all. And, it’s not all pretty. In fact, most of it is not pretty at all. What a blessing to me to know that they took away something so beautiful despite our frailty. What a blessing.

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Posted by Kelly the Overthinker
Filed Under: China, Helen

Poured Out

10.24.15

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Everyday we entered in, we started in this place. There we’d gather to be served hot leafy water before we started the work we came to do. We walked by this wall over and over again throughout our time there, coming and going. No one knew what the red characters meant until the end of the week.

“The greatest goodness is like water.”
“Nurture orphans with a merciful heart.”

That is what hangs on their wall as their mantra.

When we left that place at the end of the week, I had only the energy to send my husband a one-line text.

I am poured out.

There, over the course of only one week, that was where we all were. Poured out.

It looked like this.

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and like this.

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and like this.

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and like this.

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It looked like this.

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and like this.

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and like this.

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It looked different for each one of us as we served in the ways we were called to serve. Teaching, rocking, playing, talking, laughing, asking, hearing, cheering, loving. We were poured out. Our unguarded hearts emptied and left fragile. But, that’s right where we all wanted to be at the end of this trip—vulnerable and in need, longing to be filled again and desperate for the One who was near and able to do just that.

cup poured out

 

Baoji goodbye - 1

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Posted by Kelly the Overthinker
Filed Under: China, The Sparrow Fund

More heroes {a glimpse of the foster mothers}

10.24.15

On the right side of the building are 5 floors, each one with 4 apartments. In each apartment are a kitchen, a big living room, a storage space, two bathrooms, and three bedrooms—one blue room for 2-3 boys, one peachy pink room for 2-3 girls, and one neutral room for the adults who are parents to these children for now. They are nearly perfectly designed; the kitchens are fully equipped, lots of windows lead to lots of light and a view of the mountains on clear days, balconies off the children’s rooms have mechanical clothing lines for drying machine washed clothes, and big sectional couches in the living space set these families up for togetherness.

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As we served in the baby rooms on the left of the building, we could look out the large windows and see the matriarchs of these spaces coming and going throughout the day. There were patterns in their activity—after their children were chaperoned to their classes or sent out to school for the day, the women went in little groups together to local markets, gathering fresh supplies they would need for their meals that day, making sure they have enough to meet the requirements set forth by the orphanage. At 11:30, we’d see them throughout the orphanage hallways, going to classrooms and gathering their little ones, holding their hands or pushing their wheelchairs, and taking them back “home” for a family lunch and a rest.

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Two hours later, they retraced their steps, taking their children back to class and returning back to their homes to mop floors, wash clothes, and start the long process of preparing another fresh meal for dinner. At about 5pm, we’d see them again, doing the same thing they had done for lunch, walking through the halls with their little broods of children, escorting them “home” for the evening on the other side of the building. I imagine they ate their meals in the living space on those sectional couches that still look clean for now given that they had only been living in the new building for a few weeks. I imagine all the televisions stayed on during their meals, some with children’s shows that we likely wouldn’t think were all that appropriate if we could understand all the words, some with variety shows that the families could enjoy together. School children probably do homework sitting on those same couches with foster mothers hovering close by. Younger children maybe found some little thing to play with for a time—a paper flower, a button, something they could hold in their little hands. And, there they all live in community; big people caring for little people who need a family, and little people caring for big people who need a family.

They were quite proud to share how much they get paid for doing what they do—the equivalent of about $380 a month and a place to rest their heads. The women are considered the paid employees; their husbands are allowed to have other employment. One father works as a cook for the orphanage. Another father, who looks weathered beyond his likely age, does construction work in the city. Some are retired, having already reached the age that the city tells them they are no longer allowed to hold a formal job.

Each couple is different, though they seem remarkably the same. They love what they do. I know because I asked them. I asked them what led them to become a foster parent, and despite how proud they were to share their salary with me, none of them said it was for the material benefits. And, I don’t think that was because it would not have been politically correct; if you know China at all, you know that that’s not really a thing there.

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They all said in one way or another that they love being a mother, that they are where they are supposed to be, who they are supposed to be, when they are caring for who their culture calls the least of these. They bragged about their children, how she is hardly ever naughty, how she brings her father his slippers at night, how he is “open” and cares for younger children, how he isn’t picky and eats her meals heartily. They told me how they want me to help their children find families, that they want them to have a future. They know that future here means only the passage of time. They want more for them than that. They teared up when I asked if they miss their children when they leave for America and other parts of the world.

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One paused before she answered.

She took a breath and forced a smile.

“In my mind, these four children are mine.”

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Posted by Kelly the Overthinker
Filed Under: China

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