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An Adoption Folk Story – Sweet Moon Baby – Giveaway

8.31.11

Despite the busyness of filling backpacks and nesting (Oh, I’ve been nesting), I’ve been thinking a lot lately about birth families–the posting online of a baby found, a journalist and adoptive mom’s retelling of her experience of finding a little one, the posting I read of a mother who regretted leaving her child and hasn’t slept well since. A lot to consider. And, sometimes, it’s hard to consider. And, frankly, I hope I never “feel done” considering.

I conjure up images. I don’t really want to do this. I know I’m creating a story from the skeletal pieces of a story we have. But, for some reason, the images come. And, maybe I should just not fight them and let them come and morph as time passes.

I know I’m not the only adoptive mommy who has felt this way.

When one adoptive mommy faced the fact that her daughter’s whole first year of life would forever be a mystery for her as a mommy and for her daughter, she created a story of her own, a fairytale, to inspire her daughter’s imagination. That story about a perfect baby girl’s journey down the Pearl River to her forever family struck such a chord with her little girl that she shared her story for everyone–a brave step I wouldn’t be able to take. Karen Henry Clark took her version of an adoption folktale and gave us all Sweet Moon Baby. Using beloved items in her daughter’s life, she tells the tale of a Chinese man and woman who release their baby girl because they cannot care for her as they would want. She floats in a basket over the river guided by a turtle, a peacock, a monkey, a panda, and even some fish until she is welcomed into the arms of her new parents on the other side of the river.

The images. The illustrations are perfect, like I-need-two-copies-so-I-have-one-to-read-and-one-to-cut-up-and-hang-on-my-wall perfect. The final illustration = the perfect wordless ending. The little girl no longer a baby, sleeping with a smile while snuggling her stuffed panda with a goldfish and peacock feather on her night stand and stuffed monkey and turtle by her feet. The sweet goodnight tale for this little girl.

Some families have fallen in love with the story. But, some critics have hit this book hard — It’s confusing. It’s too scary that the birthparents sent their baby off in a basket into the river. It will lead to too many questions. I’m uneasy with all the fantasy. One adoption therapist even sent the book back to the author saying she couldn’t even display it because “it lacks plain honesty” and adopted children need facts, only facts.

Really? If that were true, we wouldn’t be able to read any adoption related kids’ books. None of them are just like her story. The only story factual for her is her story, the one God wrote for her life. And, there are no children’s books with her story.

So, I have read books with kangaroos and fox, books that tell about two Chinese babies going home together and becoming sisters forever, a single mother bringing home her baby, families adopting healthy baby girls all from the same orphanage, and babies adopted domestically. None of them are factual–for Lydia. But, they make “adoption” not a word that is whispered but something we talk about freely.

Sweet Moon Baby is Karen Henry Clark’s dream of a history for her child. And, you know what, some of those reviewers got it right.

It is confusing–adoption can be. It is a little bit scary that the baby was sent off alone–abandonment is sad and scary. And, it did lead to a lot of questions from my older children, questions that led to some really good conversation about why Lydia’s birth parents may have made choice they did. It’s not true, not true at all. It’s a fairy tale of sorts Karen Henry Clark used to encourage her daughter–and Chinese daughters adopted into Western homes all over–to keep wondering and keep talking.

And, I guess it serves to encourage adoptive mommies to keep wondering too.

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Wanna see for yourself?
I’ve got a copy to giveaway – and not just any copy – but an autographed copy. Despite the fact that I’m really tempted to keep two copies for that whole hang-the-pages-up-on-the-wall thing, I’m sharing.
To enter, leave a comment on this post with why you’d like to win or what interests you about this book or something like that.
If you want a second entry, share a link to this giveaway on Facebook and leave me a second comment here telling me you did. It’s nice to share, you know.
I won’t make you become a follower here to enter. But, it would be nice. And, I know you all are nice.
Enter before Sunday, September 4th at 10pm EST. I’ll choose a winner randomly using random.org after that. And expect an email from me asking what you think of the book, okay?

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Posted by Kelly the Overthinker
Filed Under: adoption, giveaways

Heartbreaking

8.20.11

“thriving, underground child trafficking market in China.” Heartbreaking. 


About 3 weeks ago in southern China, 369 people were arrested for their involvement in child trafficking. When the arrests were made, 89 infants were rescued, some only a few days old, many of them drugged with sleeping pills to keep them quiet maybe while they moved them to the next location, maybe to make them more “marketable” (you know, buyers might want sweetly sleeping babies). I don’t know. I wonder how they got those 89 babies. 89. If it had been just 1 child, it would be sad. But, 89? 89 very tragic stories that represent too many more. Like more than 20,000 more every year, some say that more like 70,000 a year. Regardless, the total current number is into the millions. Millions. Heartbreaking.


There’s a website a Chinese parent started–Baobeihuijia.com–it literally means “Baby Come Home.” It’s dedicated to finding lost children. 3,000 families are registered there–such a small number in comparison to so many missing. Every post there is given an id number, and the parent enters information about the children they are looking for, what they were wearing, where they were lost. It’s not a regular stop of mine. But, it’s sobering when I do visit. A boy who was taken in 1990 at 2 years old. His mother says “still the tears flow.” A girl who went out to play and never came back. The parents haven’t stopped looking for her in 20 years. Some went missing more recently. Some have pictures. Some, instead, have a little cartoon illustration so typical of so many you see in China. I wonder if those families don’t want their child’s picture posted online, if they don’t know how to post the picture, or if they don’t even have a picture.

One ad in particular someone posted elsewhere online caught my attention. A family looking for their daughter. She was born July 2, 2005. And, 6 weeks later, on August 12th, she didn’t go missing; she was left by her parents. Google translate wasn’t cutting it for me. So, I had Helen translate the post for me.

The baby had heart disease. We had spent all our savings and wanted the society to take care of her. We felt so bad in our hearts. We went to several hospitals, and the doctors couldn’t help with it and asked us to change to other hospitals. So, we left her at the gate of a bar and called 110 [China’s 911]. After we saw the emergency medical staff take her to the hospital, we went back. We left her a note and bottle supplies. We felt so regretful and haven’t sleep well since then.

Her name is Mei Jun, meaning “an ordinary beauty.” She should be just over 6 years old now. I’m sure she was taken to the local orphanage in Yunnan province. After some time there, she may have been adopted. Today, she might be jumping into some pool somewhere with a big scar on her chest from  lifesaving heart surgery. Or, not. She simply may not have lived long enough to be adopted. Or, the orphanage staff may not have seen her as healthy enough to even make her paper ready to be adopted. Her birth family may never know. I wonder how their hearts can be healed. Heartbreaking. 

Part of me wishes I could go find them and listen to their heartache first hand. Maybe I could tell them about Lydia, show them a picture of her big smile–the one when her nose scrunches up and her eyes disappear. Maybe her story would bring them hope. And, maybe I could talk to them a little about grace, forgiveness, healing, and peace and how Someone I know who is in the business of healing broken hearts.

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Posted by Kelly the Overthinker
Filed Under: adoption

Wondering

8.19.11

I read an article–no, not an article, just a short announcement really–on a Chinese website that showed this precious bundle.

A beautiful girl, a precious beautiful healthy baby girl. 

Found in a box. 

Look at the feet of the people looking around at her. I count at least 5 people there when someone snapped this picture using their cell phone no doubt. She was found during what we’d call “rush hour,” though I’m tempted to say that nearly every hour in a busy Chinese city seems like “rush hour.” So, these are the 5 who lingered long enough to be captured in this photo. I wonder if they saw someone carrying this box to this place and gently setting it down to then turn and walk away, but they didn’t even realize it. Maybe someone saw someone holding the bundle and a bag full of what the birth family clearly carefully considered they’d leave with her–it clearly took some careful consideration just by the sight of it and what you don’t see is that there was a fairly large amount of money left with her as well. I wonder if any passerby smiled at the person as they set out for this particular spot, giving that silent gesture of, “awww, what a sweet child.” If so, I wonder if the person bringing the little girl there even saw the smiles or if he or she was simply on a mission to complete what they felt must be done and never noticed even a glance. I wonder if when she was silently sleeping and everything was placed just right, if the person bringing her there paused. I wonder if he or she paused, simply paused to admire her again before   turning away, walking away…maybe running away. I wonder if he or she watched from a safe distance. I wonder if he or she saw when she was first found, when someone snapped a picture.

It wasn’t long ago that I read the announcement and took pause when I saw the picture of an unidentified child whose identity someone tried to protect by hiding her eyes. But, I guess it’s long enough ago now that the announcement is no longer posted. The original link doesn’t even work. Just sort of fits with the rest of the story. Even her finding can no longer be found.

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Posted by Kelly the Overthinker
Filed Under: adoption

Perhaps we need to talk a little more about things

8.11.11

Free family movies in the summer rule. But, $1 family movies are even better. It’s not that I’m wanting to spend $4 to see the same movies we could see for free. But, that $1 has kept the large groups of kids in matching tees who don’t have enough adults to chaperone them away. And, as much as I love kids, I confess that I’m glad to not have to do the “come-on-kids-hurry-up-we-gotta-get-a-seat!!!!” routine 30 minutes before the show. Instead, we arrive 10 minutes early, walk leisurely to the correct theater, and this mommy and her children are all very happy. We are so civilized thanks to those $1 tickets.

I’m giving a standing ovation to Ramona and Beezus which we saw this week–the best family movie I’ve seen in a long time. Genuinely entertaining and so many good things to talk about with the kids afterwards. And, I have the movie to thank for keeping my children busy this afternoon making the longest drawing ever. The super long drawing of a science museum being visited by Harry Potter with an aquarium with pixie hollow also secretly looking at the same tank of fish is a masterpiece.
Last night as we did the “come-on-kids-hurry-up-and-eat-we-gotta-get-Drew-to-his-swim-class” routine, Ashlyn asked me out of the blue, “What if our dad lost his job?” They gasped as I told them that he had lost his job 3 years ago but he quickly got another job. They went on to express their regrets that Daddy didn’t take the opportunity to get a “cool” job like a police officer, fireman, or mailman. Is it the uniform that makes them find these jobs cool? And, there I was, feeling like I had to defend my husband to…our children. “Well, guys, he has to work very hard to make enough money for us. You know, having 4 kids costs a lot of money!” At which point, Ashlyn looked straight into my eyes and said, “You had to pay for us too?”
And, I knew exactly what she was talking about. Somehow, my immediate response about how it takes a lot of money to pay for food and electricity and school supplies (anyone else feeling like they need to take out a home equity loan for school supplies?) and clothes, etc. just doesn’t seem enough.
Um…looks like we have some more talking to do about adoption. 

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Posted by Kelly the Overthinker
Filed Under: adoption

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