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Preparing for a welcome

11.4.14

If I had been brave enough to take and share before pictures, you wouldn’t recognize this room.

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It was what we very generously called the library as if we lived in some mansion. With the other bedrooms feeling too cramped with the kids’ overflowing book shelves, we had them all in here together (hence, the library/Colonel Mustard title). It could have been more appropriately called the Lego room because those little plastic squares pretty much covered every square inch of flooring that other toys weren’t covering, but that title didn’t have nearly the same mystique.

But, not any more.

When we learned in August that there might be a need for this room to actually be used as a bedroom, we started the purging process. To simply say that things were either sold or donated simply doesn’t do the process justice. It was a process indeed, painful at times and cathartic at other times. We took the cash we got from the silly little $5 sales here and there and put it together to purchase a cheap bedroom set on Craigslist that fit just perfectly.

And, then we waited to see what would happen.

While I was in China, about 2 weeks ago, I got a text and learned that, yup, the room was needed. And, tonight our guests arrive. Again, the simply sentences doesn’t do the process justice. You’ll have to trust me on that.

 

 

Let me clarify that my sisters inherited the Martha Stewart gene; I did not. I’m just not so good at all that hospitality stuff generally speaking. I envy it in my sisters and others like them who make perfect meals and have matching dishes and little white lights on pretty patios. But, I confess that it’s been pretty exciting readying this room over the last 2 weeks while battling jet lag for the family who will be living with us for the next season. And, it’s been exciting to see God fill those dressers with little boy things and growing Mama things, which He has in abundance.

In a few hours, they’ll be here. Let the chaos and craziness begin.

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Posted by Kelly the Overthinker
Filed Under: Helen, posts I can't really tag

What Orphan Sunday Is Not {Orphan Sunday 2014}

11.2.14

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Orphan Sunday.

It’s not about a movement. Movements eventually fade away with time.

It’s not about a cause. Causes are embraced by a few and can often distract us.

It’s not about providing content for pastors who preach every Sunday. There are nearly 775,000 words fully able to provide content for a lifetime of 52 weeks.

It’s not about checking a box. One designated Sunday service of 52 Sunday services even if every word and moment of those 2 hours bled a particular topic does not allow anyone to say their job is done. 

It’s not about telling people more needs to be done and urging the Church to adopt. It’s not even about adoption.

If it’s not about a movement, a cause, content, checking a box, or adoption, what is it about? 

It’s about the heart of God. It’s about who we are as His children.

A devoted and faithful child cares about that which his or her father cares. As those who follow Christ, we are called to mirror His heart. And, His heart is for the one without, every single one without.

On Orphan Sunday, the Church reminds those within its 4 walls of the ones without its 4 walls who are dear to our Father’s heart—the 153,000,000 children around the world who are orphans—and need to be dear to our hearts not just during a pretty service, singing songs that stir our hearts, watching videos that leave us in tears, or hearing His Word preached and responding with Amens. Those things are not without purpose; they are tools He uses to grow our hearts to look more like His own. It just can’t end today because tomorrow is Orphan Monday and the next day is Orphan Tuesday then comes Orphan Wednesday, Orphan Thursday, and Orphan Friday…

His call. Our call. It isn’t about today; it’s about everyday.

Learn to do good. It doesn’t come naturally and is not easy.
Seek justice. It can be hard to find in a broken world.
Help the oppressed. Be comfort.
Defend the orphan, every orphan. They are His and, therefore, our little brothers and sisters.

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Posted by Kelly the Overthinker
Filed Under: Orphans

Their Vision is Valuable {5 of the most beautiful hours of our trip}

11.1.14

It all started with what if.

We had just returned from the first team trip to the orphanage last spring. Dreaming of the next trip seemed to help us emotionally as we reentered life at home. Knowing that our friends Ben Leaman, who is an incredible photographer and creative artist, and his wife Abbey would be on the next trip 6 months later, I sent them a text that simply started with what if.

What if you led a photography workshop with the older kids there? You could weave truth into the lessons, build them up as creative beings who can make an impact on the world. What do you think?

It was surreal months later to be witnessing this—Day 1 of the first ever orphan photography workshop in Shaanxi.

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At 4pm everyday, there were 12 children between the ages of 8 and 12, ones we had not been invited to engage with before now, eagerly waiting for the Americans and the red cameras we had in hand for them in the lobby of the orphanage. Ben started each session with a short lesson, masterfully weaving in a deeper lesson into each one, which was followed by time for the children to take pictures, as many as they wanted, focusing on the topic of the day.

Day 1 {beauty} – what is beauty? there is beauty all around us, even in the seemingly mundane and ordinary.
Day 2 {shadows} – what makes a shadow? shadows are reminders that things—and you—make an impact on the world.
Day 3 {color} – what colors do you like? colors make us feel. it’s good to feel things. we are made to feel.
Day 4 {portraits} – who do you find beautiful? all people are beautiful, people are God’s masterpiece.

Every evening, after the rest of the team had collapsed into their beds, Ben and Abbey burned the midnight oil, sorting through literally thousands of images on memory cards and editing pictures that the children had taken that day.

The results were nothing sort of miraculous. Allow me to simply give you a sneak peek at a few of the pieces that took our breath away.

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I confess that I didn’t expect this. I wanted to build them up as creators; I wanted to speak into their hearts that they were beautiful and that the world around them could be seen as beautiful. I confess that I didn’t expect their creations to actually be stunningly beautiful. And, they are. They are absolutely amazing. What they captured through their camera lenses of the ordinary around them is nothing short of extraordinary. 

Day 5 {celebration} – Come and see and celebrate what you have created. We celebrate you.

I had a hard time keeping my camera steady through my tears during our last photography workshop. We showed the children and the staff who gathered behind them the pictures the children had taken. We saw all of their eyes open wide as we showed them how there are elements of art and beauty that are universal despite how we don’t speak the same language and live on opposite sides of the world. We printed at least one picture for each child to keep as well as their portrait that Ben had taken of them, capturing personalities and inherent beauty in each one. And, then Ben and Abbey called out each child by name, invited them to the front of the crowd, and awarded them a certificate of completion, congratulating them as beauty makers and beauty holders.

One of the directors came to me after the ceremony and bowed her head to me as she spoke. Our translator told me she thanked me for the hard work and for the idea to do this class for the first time. I bowed to her and told her it was a dream come true.

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There’ve been more what ifs over the last week or so. What if we hosted a photography exhibit featuring their art? What if we took it beyond our local town to show people the value of their vision and allow them to see these children—orphans with special needs—as beautiful beauty makers? What if we were able to fund the work, keep the work going, through an exhibit like this?

Anyone want to sponsor something like that?

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Posted by Kelly the Overthinker
Filed Under: China, Orphans, The Sparrow Fund

A Psalm of Response {after a trip to an orphanage}

10.31.14

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O Lord, Sovereign God, maker of all things, sustainer of life.
You know all things; nothing exists that you do not know.
You don’t stop there. You don’t just know all things; you are engaged with all things.
You are always present, always active, always working.

Lord, it was you who nudged me. It was you who stirred my spirit.
It was you who gently led me and fully provided.
It was you who picked me up and carried me across the world as your ambassador.
It was you who whispered encouragement in my ear and into my heart and upheld me.

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You said, “This is my servant. I am her God. I delight in her,”
proving yourself a faithful and gentle Father
not because of who I am but because of who you are.
Your song over me and your joy in me sustained me when my knees were weak and lifted my spirit when I was weary.

You led me on a path I did not know, a path I thought would bring your light to a dark place.
But, that path led me to you, father to the fatherless, companion to the lonely, the One true friend to the seeking.
You were already there, already at work, already drying tears and healing broken hearts.
You were already closing the gaps on tiny lips and in people’s lives.

You don’t need me to bring you there. You don’t need me to be a savior.
I lay down before you knowing I am unable, aware of my frailty and my own need to be saved.
But, you lift me up and welcome me as your child to be a part my Father’s work.
You invite me to love with my heart, head, and hands despite of myself.

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You are higher than the mountains, louder than the cries of humanity, bigger than the greatest walls man can build.
You show compassion to those without a family and those who grieve not cradling their children.
You guide the hands of even those who do not yet know you to do your work. You give glimpses of you.
How can I not know you more, crave you more, love you more?

O Lord, Sovereign God, maker of all things, sustainer of life.
You know all things; nothing exists that you do not know.
I humbly thank you for calling me, saving me, loving me, using me.
You are the only sovereign Lord, and I am your servant.

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a version of this post was originally posted in March following the first trip I took to serve at the orphanage. This post is updated with new photos and slightly edited text. It seemed fitting to repost as I continue to process the experience of this last trip.

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Posted by Kelly the Overthinker
Filed Under: China, Orphans, The Sparrow Fund

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