a letter to my 4 year old on her birthday
You are such a big girl now. 4 years old. Wow. You remind me all the time of what a big girl you are. And, I know I always agree with you. But, now that you’re 4 years old? You are really big.
When I put you to bed last night, I talked to you a little about your China mommy and daddy because 4 years ago, you didn’t come out of my belly, you came out of your China mommy’s belly. I wasn’t with you that day to see you see the world for the first time. Daddy didn’t get to hear your first cry. And, I’m a little sad that I missed those things. But, you know what? Your China mommy and daddy got to see you and hold you. And, even though we don’t know anything about that day, I do know what birthdays are like. And, I really think it was a special day for them when they met you for the first time. It was definitely a special day because it was the day you entered the world.
We prayed together last night for your China mommy and daddy. I think you prayed something like this: “Dear God. Thank you for my China mommy and I come out of her belly in China then I come live with mommy and daddy. And, I a big girl because it’s my birthday and I turned big and I get a flashlight and I a big girl now. Thank you for my birthday because I a big girl. Amen.”
I prayed something like this, “Dear God, we thank you for Lydia’s China mommy and daddy particularly today on her birthday. We thank you that they gave her life. And, even though we don’t know them right now, we know that you know them. And, we pray that you would bring them to yourself and that we could one day know them. Amen.”
When we were done praying and you were getting all snuggled in under your covers with all your renrens and flashlights around you, your big sister in the bunk above you said, “I want to meet Lydia’s China family. If we met them, I think they’d be happy and sad–happy to see her again and sad that they don’t have her anymore.” I want to make sure you know, my sweet, that I think the same thing. And, I hope one day we have the chance to meet them so that we can all be happy and sad together as a family.
XOXO and lots more,